Lucius Matthiesen
2 min readDec 4, 2019

Make Your Fear Fear You

I’ve just been listening to the final mixes of my new songs HAUNTED and SOULLESS, and I am EXCITED! Surely, that’s how you SHOULD feel after you’ve just popped out a baby and are holding it in your arms. Even if, if you’re totally honest, you can see that it’s kind of wonky and slightly less than perfect. But you created it. You put your blood, sweat and tears into the thing, and now it’s a living, breathing entity. Bringing something into existence gives you an intoxicating feeling of power.

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This brings me to my next point: I’ve finally come to a place in my life where I feel bigger than my fear. Bigger than the internalised insecurities that have been scratching and biting and clawing at me for years trying to keep me silent, like they were programmed to do. It’s not that they’ve gone away. I don’t think that happens, for anyone, and having that be the end goal is an unhealthy lie. There are far too many gurus selling it, and way too many people who are buying the illusion.

So you can never live a life free from fear. But you can become bigger than your fear. You can make your fear fear you. That’s a much better tactic.

We all carry scars that refuse to heal. Our power as creators, artists, musicians, entrepreneurs, and human beings, lies in doing what we’ve got to do anyway. Life is largely a game of giving yourself permission to pursue your biggest, crazies dreams in the face of your demons.

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Lucius Matthiesen
Lucius Matthiesen

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